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"Nanti cuti sekolah Gee bawak Along balik kampung ya mak" "Cuti sekolah Along nak balik kampung duduk rumah mak ya bu" "Mak, along nak pergi Negeri Sembilan, dapat tawaran belajar kat sana. Along dapat masuk asrama Mak" "Mak jangan sedih-sedih, along pergi India nak belajar. Nak jadi doktor. Boleh ubat mak dengan yang lain. Nanti senang-senang Along telefon Mak ya" "Doakan mak ya Long, kalau mak mati nanti Along balik ya" ... Selama 22 tahun, aku memang rapat dengan Mak. Lebih rapat dari ibu kandungku sendiri. Aku tahu syurgaku dibawah tapak kaki ibu. Tapi, memang dari kecik mak yang banyak bela aku. Kalau kena marah dengan Abah, Mak-lah yang akan pujuk. Nama je Along, cucu sulong pula tu. Tapi, kalau merajuk boleh tahan. Tak nak makan lah, menyorok bawah meja lah. seret badan sampai ke dapur lah.. Tergelak juga bila diingatkan semula. .... 14 April 2018, Sabtu Stress betul aku dengan management posting surgery kal...

When will I see you again? You left with no goodbye, not a single word was said No final kiss to seal anything I had no idea of the state we were in I know I have a fickle heart and a bitterness And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head But don't you remember, don't you remember? The reason you loved me before Baby please remember me once more When was the last time you thought of me? Or have you completely erased me from your memories? I often think about where I went wrong The more I do, the less I know But I know I have a fickle heart and a bitterness And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head But don't you remember, don't you remember? The reason you loved me before Baby please remember me once more Oh, I gave you the space so you could breathe I kept my distance so you would be free In hope that you find the missing piece To bring you back to me Why don't you remember, don't you remember? The reason you loved me before Baby please ...